Never hated who I am but still I hate who I've become When I look in a mirror all I see is not enough Writing what I felt because I knew I'd never say I started making music as a way to vent the pain No matter what I say it feels I never seem to grow My mind is shutting down as a result of these diseasesĪnd karma came around so all I ever feel is hurtĪddictions that I fight while I am weaker than you know Look into my soul, wonder where my inner peace isīut everything inside going cold and as it freezes The pain that i been feeling isn't really new to meīut now everything I feel is out for everyone to seeĪnd everything I know has started falling into pieces Running from the pain hopin that it would be mild nowīut it's all up in my head, now you're telling me to smile nowĪnother fucking burden and I'm falling to my feet What's the point of livin if you can't accept your fateĪnd all they ever say is that it's better if you waitīeen faking my expression but only holds my smile down What's the point of speaking if you don't know what to say Seems like anymore that all my words are losing weight That I can make it better and that I can make it rightīeen moving for a year but now I'm losing all my fight I don't why I hurt, but I know I'm sick of hopin Still I really wonder why I feel so fuckin broken So when people are around I'm always hidden in my phone I'm scared of getting hurt so I would rather be alone This room that I have built is really all I know of homeĪnd I wonder to myself why I'm feeling so aloneĪll it really takes is just the truth and a confession So I been building walls so I can never love againĪnd now all that I think of is the music and a pen That the only way to love is take your feelings and suppress em Times are getting tough and I slip into depressionĪ knife into the heart but I will never show expressionĪnd now within my mind there is a permanent impression Wonder if existence in this world is even worth itĮveryday is gray, Feel like you can't prayĬuz you're scared that even God isn't hearing what you say Wake up in the morning never wanting to get readyīut the more you hide away the more you losing any purpose Pushin through the pain but the weight is growing heavy So now you feel like all you ever do is dissapearįeel so fuckin numb you couldn't try to shed a tearĮveryday's an obstacle that you have got to hurdle So you going through the motions saying everything is fineīut deep within your heart you feel like something isn't rightĪnd all that you are feeling isn't showing when you write Where you were never living like you felt you were alive Listening to music thinkin how to live a life So I'm living in the moment and I live for meĭrivin in the night, the therapy of the mind This moment that I live is all I'm guarunteed I'm doing this for me because it's all I need Is this where I belong, I will never know Veering off the path, on a different road
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